The whole of the building is cold. I hear through tenth-hand information that they can't specifically air-condition the O.R.s, so they must drop the temperature in all of the rooms.
Upstairs, many of us are huddled under old, piled blankets. One haggard-looking, hardened young woman complains that she, too, is freezing, but she won't use a blanket because there is just no telling who used it before now.
I want to tell her it doesn't matter. Whomever it was, it was us. That I find the stray hairs on the worn worsted wool comforting, unifying.
We are all one. We should be, anyway. Sisters in this. Sisters in life. Non-judgmental, non-prejudiced, open, caring, nurturing. Even though we won't nurture the tissues inside of us, we can nurture each other.
Sometimes, we are all we have.
And I would drape us around me any day. Every day.
Comments (5)
You're very brave to blog about this. I don't know if I'd have the guts. I'll email you.
xoxox
m.
Posted by marian | October 15, 2006 10:11 AM
You're good like this, open and welcoming; still willing to send out love to whoever will receive- Willing to share what is so deeply personal, yet so deeply common and human. The good karma of it all comes back to you, I hope you feel it.
Be good to yourself. Eat, breath, rest...Eat...
As always, thinking of you and sending the goods.
Posted by lu | October 15, 2006 11:11 AM
Well, you know, only like 20 people even read this, so I'm not really out there. I would never have blogged this on my other blog. No way. But thank you. I do feel brave.
Lu, I do need to rest. I haven't rested much at all. Still in quite a bit of pain and bleeding and stuff. One of the saddest parts is that my body still thinks it's pregnant.
It really did strike me how many women go through this, every day, all over the country. And we can't really say, hey, excuse me, I'm having a bad day because of this unwanted pregnancy. Or, yes, I'm grumpy because I just had an abortion.
Posted by trisha | October 15, 2006 11:43 AM
Wow, your writing about this is heart-wrenchingly beautiful.
Posted by Lunasea | October 15, 2006 4:21 PM
I cannot imagine trying to hide that pain inside.
Posted by Sarahlynn | October 16, 2006 10:44 AM